Aboutyourattitude

Learning to appreciate the moment for the Good not for the Criticism
for you can critic every moment unto Death
Let go to hanging on
Some things you hang onto ... Some things you let go to just so you may fly
Learn to fly Together ... take a Friend  ... go Together ... Three is even more fun
So about your attitude ...
How similar is it to the attitude of Judas ~ "The Betrayer"
Now Judas was a guy with an attitude ... What was his problem anyway?
"Judas had the unfortunate combination of individual peculiarities and mental tendencies
which conspired to destroy a well- intentioned man
 who failed to subdue these evils by Love ... Faith and Trust
As the result of his persistent isolation of personality
his griefs multiplied  ... his sorrows increased ... his anxieties augmented
and his despair deepened almost beyond endurance
Judas was self-centered and ultra-individualistic
He had many psychic ... emotional and spiritual troubles
In personality ... he was isolated
In mind ... he was suspicious and vengeful
In temperament ... he was surely and vindictive
Emotionally ... he was loveless and unforgiving
Socially ... he was unconfiding and almost wholly self-contained
In Spirit ... he became arrogant and selfishly ambitious
In life he ignored those who loved him
and in Death  ... he was friendless." (Urantia page 1811)
Pride of self that nourished itself to the point of self-deception
had Judas believing his rebellion was actually good for the System if not the Universe
As his plans developed into disillusionment
beyond just mischief-making pride ... his experience became insincere
and Evil evolved into deliberate and willful sin
He rejected with increasing contempt and distain Mercy
Refusing to receive Mercy
 Refusing to be Merciful
So when God begins to talk to her ... she blah...blah...blahs Her with Religion Rote
 ... talking over The Spirit ... louder in her Our Fathers & Hail Marys
so as to not hear  God's Word spoken by the Spirit to her.

She began talking in tongues ... babbling just to be sure she doesn't listen
thinking ... thinking ... THINKING without listening
Thinking so loudly it drowns out the quiet voice of the Spirit
The Director not willing to yell over the roar of your mind to make Her Point
that You think far more than you listen
"What do you mean?" ... she asks ... blinky - blink?
"I think you're mumbling God"
"I can't understand You God ... but I guess I wasn't suppose too."
Such a defeatist attitude ... so negative ... so dead!
So Jesus died on the Cross for nothing? For you not to get why Jesus died? God's Idea?
"God is too BIG and I am so small ... I just can't get God wants me to understand God"
"I guess I am not suppose to go beyond the rhetoric ... dig deeper ... actually understand."
Since when did you think God was Dead and you decided not to be thoughtful?
Exactly when was it you died in Spirit ... became the Cynic without Hope ... without Faith?
Well I think it was around the Lucifer Rebellion that I found Myself mislead
acquiescing to the Will of the Patriarchs
Not knowing my Father
Sacrificing my Mother
Denying my Sister
Hating my Brother
Rejecting my Children
No One ~ No Body was Relative ~ All Strangers lying to me about this Reality
I was an Orphan so sad ... Sorrow Full ...My history distorted.
The party had left me as if there had never been a party at all...
My life, such a terribly sad story, finally began with the death of my Self
and the Birth of Humility
I struggled forward in spite of their sarcasm, trying to make sense of it all
Why don't you quit?
Why don't you sell out? Why don't you drop out? Why don't you drop dead?
Why don't you get a job?
It's a job trying to get along with you trying to arrange my life to suit you
just so you will be happy with the way things are...
the way "I" am ("I" being the every one else in your life)
The "I" is never quite to your liking and if only "I" would change
if only she could see the change in me that would be the only change necessary

Me, not doing my life the way she thinks I should do my life
Who does she think she is anyway? Some one special ... some one blest?
Who will be able to rise above her cynicism and sarcastic remarks
Intentions to inflict pain ... What a shame!
Who do you think you are?  How do you do unto others?
What a Jerk ... edge of berserk!
Emotional inconsistencies ... rising and falling ... coming and going
Always on her way ... all ways in her way
Refusing to confide in her friends for she thought she had no friends
Upon occasion,  after a few drinks,  the accumulation of her emotional conflicts
results in an attempt to justify her isolation in the shoe box religion she believes in
she invariably seeks the advice and the unwise consultation of unspiritual relatives
or chance acquaintances who are either indifferent or actually hostile
to the welfare and progress of the Spiritual Realities
So much for her thinking ... so much for her revealing!
If you are really following the precepts of Jesus
you would not be as unhappy as you are
for you are unhappy in your life
Unhappy in what you think others are doing ... others are not doing
Unhappy with your Self and you should be because of the way you think about others
 focusing on what you perceive as their sins
You are deceitful without recognizing your deceitfulness
Manipulative without acknowledging the maneuvers you go through to make sure
you do not know ... understand ... evolve ... Change
Putting brick walls in the way of Personal Understanding
"Are you calling me stupid?"
No ... but you are a closed door and you have locked Satan within your mind
letting unharmonious thoughts cloud your vision
So let down your guard ... stop being so defensive
Love is not a fight against Satan
You Love and Satan withers
You Fight and Satan reigns

Love is not a Fight nor should Life be a Fight
Do no spit in the face of your adversary
Do not cut your nose off to spite your face
Do not abuse the Powers which you have been given
Money is Power ... Do not become "The Bitch"  when you begin to make more ... get more
Be good to your Sisters ... Take care of your Mothers  and Grandmothers
Love your father although most likely at some level he is a jerk
that is not saying you have to like or approve of his behavior
 but recognize he is your brother however stupid he is about the many realities of this life
on the planet Urantia in America
And because he is so full of it, he actually perceives himself as being generous
and smarter than most if not all
 and his Know -It - All attitude is reflected by his arrogance
As we see another well-intended President lead America into other conflicts
because the economy is going downhill and unemployment is high
and some of these third world countries are just getting out of hand
and the starving poor still have enough strength to beg for food
and those foreigners are taking all the good jobs
All this requiring  "The American Police Force" to keep the peace world-wide
and selling our out-dated weapons to all sides in every conflict
just so all sides are relatively equal in their killing power 
and in the end America will do the most business with the Side that wins
with who ever is still living and quite vulnerable to the distribution of candy
And here at home we find the arsonist is the firefighter creating work 
and the opportunity for heroism saving the people from the Fire Fight
raging in the minds of the Arsonist/Politicians
who just happens to be passing by on some moon less night ... in the dark of night
the arsonist creeps around starting fires in trash bins just to see what happens
He cruises city-wide ... spying ... eyeing what needs to go
What favor he is going to do next for the good of the community
Bored and in want of some excitement that sex and dancing won't satisfy
What thoughts burn in the heart of the arsonist can't believe how easy
it is to burn an establishment down ...really nothing personal
it is just the business is an easy mark like the Elderly and Children
so defenseless!

So how hard is it to change your attitude ... the impossible dream ... another scheme
What is it you would have to do to save yourself from your depression
What to begin to think to change your thoughts
 about suicide however slow the poison of your choice 
The only way out of your depression is not to see suicide or those excesses as an option
because it is not the way out but will only lead you deeper into Hell
and my darlings wherever you are currently at, it can always get worse
Your option is not to help it go there or make it worse with negative internalizing.
Praying to the Holy Mother will give you the strength to endure
Endurance comes from God and if you ask ... if you pray respectfully
She Will give you Endurance
Endurance is the act ... quality or power of withstanding hardship or stress
The state or fact of preserving ... to bear with tolerance ... to suffer patiently without yielding
For all those who trust and believe in God all things resolve to the Ultimate Good
and within our life times
Which means we live to see The Resolution of Christ Resurrected
and live long enough  to feel the Love from God
 is
Love One Another!